It’s no lie. I’ve gained a lot of weight these past 10 months and I don’t like it, but it’s not for the reasons you might think. Yeah I am annoyed that my clothes fit differently, but for the first time in my life I don’t feel horrible about myself because I am 20 pounds heavier. For the first time I don’t care about what I look like or what others think I look like, at least not in the shallow external way I used to.
Don’t get me wrong.
I do care about my weight gain, because it signals a decrease in my fitness and because it’s a direct consequence of the absence of consistent workouts in my life. Those things bother me. I also care, because increased weight can affect your health and being healthy is important to me, but what I look like? Nope, that does not play a factor and, as a woman who has spent her whole life wanting to feel skinny and look pretty, this change of mindset feels quite empowering.
That said, it IS actually time to start losing weight. Not because I want to look skinny, but because I want to regain my fitness. I want to race again and challenge myself and set PRs…and that, well that’s going to require I get my butt back into shape.
I’ve done 2 Sprint Tris and a 1 mile swim this year and while I did okay, I know I could’ve done better, had I been training. So with my next race right around the corner, I’m making another attempt at restarting my training. This time there’s no Sprint distance I can drop down to, so it’s Olympic distance or bust!
And that excuse I keep using? It’s got to go.
“I’m too busy.”
“I’ve got too much work.”
“I’ve got to get this work done.”
Yep, entrepreneuring takes a lot of work. Yes, entrepreneurs works stupid hours and get wrapped up in task after task, after task. I love doing it and I love getting wrapped up in my work, but I also love other things and if I am going to preach work-life balance to my clients, students and staff, isn’t it time I start following that rule myself?
For the love of fitness, it’s time I get back in the pool, get back on my bike and lace up those running shoes!